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Miss netball time
Miss running time
Miss jogging time
Miss my sports~
Cant even imagine i cant play sports now
When can i recover?
How i knw?
Even the Dr duno
Even the god duno
Even...

~I fil stupid n useless now
Anyth i can do last time
I cant do it now
Anyth i cant do last time
I cant do it oso
is GOD playing a prank on me?~

2 days ago,
i recalled some incidents n my tears jus flowed dwn
I don intend to cry
mb im juz too sentimental

I tot of aunty helping mi to use the med oil to massage my swollen foot n fingers
I start to fil touched

I tot of mommy oways bz finding tym to brew n boil all those fish bone soup, med 4 mi
I felt its disgusting but i hab to drink
Its her piece of thot
I fil reali touched when she oways said she'll acc mi to e Dr
cos i had to go every wk
At nite
She'll hlp mi to use med oil to massage my hands n fingers
bcos i said my hands had become weaker
bcos i said it fils stiff in e morn
bcos i said i cant hold a pen properly in sch
Its even touching when she offered to cut my nails for mi
cos in my memory
she'll nv do tis for mi

I hope~

i reali can recover real soon
i wanna take part in nx yr's NAFA test
i wanna be back to a healthy n active person agn
i wanna~
i wanna~
Lots n lots...

I hope tml will turn out to be a beta day