=( feeling sorry, sad n unhappy

Ytd went to get pay wif pei. Went back during e evening aft her pp. act I was thinking I can gt it ownself aft my pp in e morn. But since jiang hao wif her e other day le, don feel v right if change plan agn. Cos gt to call her instead, quite 麻烦, nt lk last tym v convenient, juz msg tell can le. Ermm… so lent her 50 bucks, cos she needed it for some reason. I was quite hesitant n reluctant, but she b4 tt said, we had known each other lk nid bout 10 yrs le, so if I don lend her, sort of… la. lk 见死不救. But ended up I 害了自己leh, cos when I handed mom e pay to ask her hlp mi deposit into my bank, n had told her I earned 300 bucks, but I 4gt I had alr lent 50 bucks to pei, so she asked y short of 50? N I said, I lent to pei. N IMMEDIATELY she was FUMING n scolded y I lent? As if ownself v rich lk tt, n wad if she dint return mi… $50 NOT $5, she claimed. N I was quite sad n felt stupid, knw in e 1st place I’ll be kena scolded if I had lent e mani, but duno y still so stupid go agree lent n in e end kena scolded so BADLY. Mom had wanted mi to “追债”, but juz lent ppl den 要硬着头皮go讨meh? Haiz… Sure cant return mi back yet de ma, if gt mani den she don nid borrow fr mi le right? So at nite, feeling so 烦, I don reali can study stats le la, so I went to borrow bro’s fon (wif my card la) n started msging ah seng. It was getting weird when I dint receive his reply cos normally he’ll straight away reply when I msg. so I kp waiting den till bout reaching 10pm, I received a msg fr ANDREW!!! OMG… I was thinking if I had sent e WRONG person? N I checked my contacts, N found out tt Andrew name is juz BELOW ah seng, mb I had pressed too quick n sent e wrong person, tts y dint received till seng’s reply la. so of cos la, he started asking bout it n no choice I went to say it out.
Pei, im so sorry, I dint intend to say but if he asked I den cant deny or wad right? N I feel tt sometym u gt prob must let ur lao gong shared ur prob wif u right? (I hope u r nt really angry =( ) So I started telling him bout it, n he said u WONT borrow fr him tts y u borrowed fr mi. but its “borrow” not ask for it mah, I don understand n c y cant ask fr bf instead? Bf definitely closer than fren right, I mean e status lah. Ermm… if its mi, I’ll ask fr bf b4 u guys de. summo if I rich I oso don nid wk liao lor. Hees… N 1 thing worth happy bout, pei. Its lk he wanna hlp u RETURN e mani, I mean 患难见真情leh!!! At least now u 更加can了解his性格了. OM… I was so touch even im nt e 女主角. *sob sob* haha. But of cos I dint agree la, cos ltr u angry wif mi for telling him den gt back e mani fr him. So I said u said will return den will return de la. At least now u found out tt act he’s 1 tt will hlp u n stand by u in tym of need, so ya… feel blessed n happy bout it okkies? Treasure 1 another =)

So I hope u wont really mind tt I ACCIDENTALLY speak out, n tt if u really mind, pls tell mi ok? SORRY =(

P.s: I tink he was quite ”grateful” for mi to tell him, cos at least he knw e prob n can 分担wif u mah… Once agn, sorry…=(